Betrayer.

And i thought having a housemate was a good idea. But its farking not. Haha. What a joke. True friend wont talk behind your back issit?? But i feel stabbed again and again...the fact that i kept my mouth shut is becuz i'm the kind of person that is hard to get mad or pissed off but when i did, i can hardly stop. See? I dont make things complicated here, once you had betrayed me, and i found out, you're an end.

 Phuocccyew~

 Lemme give a scenario here... Mia and Lana were staying together. They were friends , and also a good one. Lana has been calling Mia as her sister ever since they known each other. Furthermore, Lana is a girlfriend to Mia's elder brother. And so , as soon as they finish their study, Mia went off an area of the city and stayed there alone, working. After raya , Lana contacted Mia to ask if she could live with her. With a big heart Mia asked her to come over and move in. Month passed, they live together in one empty house. And once the landlord asked them to move out, they moved. Lana came from her hometown with no saving at all.

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Mia has been responsible for all the expenses of both of them without any complaining despite that she has her own problem. Two months. And ever since they stayed in one small square room , they get used to sleep next to each other. No mattress just comforter. Indeed life is hard for both of them. Lana has encountered problem at her working place and quit eventually. Mia , in the other hand , recommended her to work at her workplace. She was accepted. And they were happily work together, going home together , eat together and etc. Mia trusted Lana so much when Lana started to show her dark side. Lana has been giving a utter disrespect to Mia despite of the fact that they live together. She has been so irresponsible. Eat . . Then the dishes she left there till maggots come. Sleep . . She used to watch movie or listening to music till fall asleep. The thing is, she uses the loudspeakers. Ironing cloth, she uses Mia's comforter blanket as a base and burnt it .

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She didn't even say sorry to Mia. And doing the laundry, she can't even do a simple thing right. All of these are bothering Mia a lot and so much. Becuz Mia thot that Lana is big enuf to think and shouldn't act like baby instead. She keep it silent. And try to accept Lana's flaws. And then , there's one time , Lana's boyfriend which is also Mia's brother, came over. They were arguing so much and suddenly that fucker asked Mia to get out of the room. He and Lana were making out in term of getting over with their argument. Mia feels so fucking upset that she called her boyfriend, Josh , and once she heard his voice, she burst into tears. Mia has been putting respect on Lana for all these while and she kept stepping on her head. The room that they rented was actually given it's own rules. One of the rule is ' NO OUTSIDER ALLOWED '.


Mia still remembered when Lana went for her convocation at kl, she didn't even mess up with the room. She didn't even bring Josh to come and sleep over when she could actually do that. But Lana is being so stupid that she made out with her boyfriend in that very room. Mia felt disgusted. And she felt hardly to sleep on that comforter ever since. But still, she kept her mouth shut. . Days passed. Then one day the landlord of the room called both of them. They were scolded for being late on paying the rent. And since salary is yet to banked in, they both tried to ask help from family member. Mia is scolded by her own mum instead of getting helped. Her dad didn't even have a single penny just yet at that time.


 Her brother argued with her. And eventually she told Josh and he helped her. She ask help from her sister, Jude and she helped her. On the other hand , Lana didn't even managed to get any help from anybody. Again, Mia did it all. But Mia never blame on Lana. Then one day, Mia cried . She was so upset with her family members. And she shared her problem with Lana. After hearing her problem, Lana made a confession. All these while, it turns out that Mia's own mum has been contacting Lana. And she judges Mia as she actually told it to Lana.

Mia was shocked . She never thot that her own mother would trust other people than trusting her own daughter. That is the point that she felt so fucking betrayed. By the people around her. She don't know her family anymore. And she doesn't like Lana anymore. She wants to leave and go far far away from the people she known. Lana doesn't know about this. But Mia is determined to leave her soon. So that's the scenario. I only could say that i'm so disappointed with my own family and the person that i thot were my friend. I just gonna leave these people. Moreover, whats d point for being so dumb and just let the world step on you? I hate betrayal.


Seriously i do. I'll leave soon. Just wait and see.

life. The New Leaf

Colorful life, isn't it..?? True... Becuz we never knew what might happen to us in the future.


 Meet jeremy, he's my friend before, a good one. And i never expect things like this would happen.. Three times of trying, the fourth time he managed to have me as his girlfriend. 22th october,. He kneeled down and proposes to me in front of the public ... Weewwh ... I was in cloud nine, a dream that is too good to be true. my heart tells me , do give it a shot tis time. And so...i took the propose. Next day i met his parents and had a great dinner and talk together. The family are so warm and cheerful. Especially his mum. Lots of advices were given. And somehow i feel secured... I love what i feel. I feel being wanted . I feel that i could happily tell the world about who am i to someone. It was my dream anyway. Im tired of becoming a shadow .. And feel tired of getting a simplest thing in the hardest way,....

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 Jeremy and me. This is a beautiful feeling. He grabs me and kissed my forehead as he tells me, 'you dont have to be afraid of letting go anymore' i smiled and i know he meant it. So i decide.... I have to let go. Ajin, our stories and our fate. Puzzle left undone. I loved him before, more than i loved myself. But he never sees it in me. But i dont and wont blame him for choosing a better girl out there. Furthermore, i cannot hate him. :) which is good for me. I'll try to live as happy as i can with my new story.

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 Quite sad becuz soon after meeting his family, jeremy and them went back to hometown which is far from me and the fact that he works in non-line coverage areas, is really tempting. But i know i can cope. Sa biasa suda juga. And i know i dont have to be worry. :) i pray that everything is gonna be fine , my story,ajin's story, i know he is happy without me.. :) i'll get better in time , Amen.


 My story. Finance problem is all it... I wish i could get out from this problem. Suffocated much. life at work somehow is really tiring.but i am grateful as it teaches me how hard its like to earn a single penny out of your sweat like seriously. I know now. Thank you Lord for teaching me. Family. This word is now a stranger for me, i felt like i am not exist. In family, suppose that we are standing firm with each other. But seems like things turn the other way around. I dont know why shud i get to live life like tnis . I knoww i shudnt blame them. I will improve myself and pay my debts to them.thanks family, i feel that im not exist among you guys. Huuu...all i know now is that i cannot predict future.

Despite of my hatred towards guy, jeremy gave me a reason not to. --.relieved now. I wont take this chance for granted. ..IMMA LOVE MY LIFE HEARTFULLY! ciaozzz