last Tuesday ..
He came to my place and we met. As i packed up already all my things from the hostel, i have cleared all the bills that needed to pay and any form that need to be settle up with my college, now i'm officially moving out from my hostel.
But before i moved out, he then brought me to his place, met his sister there, and sleepover there.
the next day , his sister went off to work and we woke up later abit after that. i said i wanna go back and he said later on he'll send me.. waiting for the SenQ people to come and install the new freezer.
so okay we waited till evening.. i cooked and we ate together. knowing that he is very choosy on foods, hot needs to be super hot, and cold needs to be super cold, and thre to prepare his meal is actually very easy but need to be careful with the taste.. and he wont eat mixed up foods .
glad that he actually did ate the meal i cooked.
later in the evening, the people of SenQ came. they install the freezer and im the one excited to see.. hoho kami dua rasmi kasi buka n operate the thing. so nyaman that new freezer. after 8 hours of installment then we can turn on the plug.
i immediately make some ice cubes.
here's the sneek peak while they did the installment..
and here's the stuff i like there :)
and since he always called me panda, this is what i bought for him.. a panda car deodorizer :)
but then the scent are finished, he put the panda in his room .. well i think chabey dislikes it so thats why he put it off his car . :3
and here's what me and his sister did on a boring night :D
met his second sister after that, and we spent time talking and chit chat.
not realizing that another nite is been spent.
that third night, as his sister works and another one went out, i actually had a loner nite out at the corner of stairs and assuming him to make call with that other girl . he did asked where am i going but sa cakap ,sa faham ko pun mao privacy . .. and i smiled to him and walked out from the house. sa dengar gospel songs back to back, wewh.
some "eery" stranger went up and say hi to me, asked lotsa questions that made me feel intimidated. so i went down the stairs and sit in the park instead. its a cold cold night and somehow calms my heart to neutral .. neutral zero emotionally passive. i dont want to think so much .
i know he only wanna have some fun now.
he came and we stayed a while at the park. talked about things and stuffs and laughed but deep inside me i wanna scream out loud to him telling , stop all this drama. but then again, i surrender to my own self.
we went up and took refreshment, slept. its feels so nice to be hugged and felt comforted.
but i know again he is spending his time for me and for those other girls . i know that and i keep it well in my mind.
so i decide to be neutral and act like nothing.
just appreciate the times .
as i go to my new house, thing has been very tough to me .
the house is completely empty, no any furniture and tools. i unpacked my things and yeah started the cleaning spree..
its not really fun thing to actually living by your own without any companion and supports. felt very very low of self esteem.
but its a challenge for becoming a real adult. ..
hooho .. so there, im alone now . my friend have the diffulty to move in together with me so i think imma handle this by my own. cuz my dear sister also still cannot certain when is she really can move in here.
been less online these few days becuz of so many things to think of and to do.
there was one time that i ate late and had this real migraine coming. i puke and threw out like non stop. and gawd the head is really wanna blow up.
its becuz of him. he pick up calls and talks and i was just at the other side of the room. i tried to swallow the fucked up feelings and there he came and said, think...
lol. i dont wanna think anymore for God sake.
let him be.
but i kept on throwing up and he actually shocked to see me like dat, so do i.
and he hugged real close, worrying . so he brought me eating out.
we ate and went home. exhausted. terus tidur jak .
sa mao ingat tu semua . its good to have nice memories .
skg sa alone but even so, i do have stories to be remembered of.
a wrap for now, so good night me ~ :)
ciaoz
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