Define sadness

It all started with a photo in my instagram. And betrayal. And privacy violation. And thus. I lost one precious friend ever in my life. Another one is slipping away.
Define sadness. It is an emotion that u hd and u cannot even talk about it. U cannot even describe it by words. Only by tears. And gasping for air. Define sadness. Sadness is the loneliness that u felt even when u are in the crowd. Coldness in ur backbone and ur hand shivers.. shaking while typing and tears are dropping down ur cheeks.

Define sadness. Sadness is what u felt when something inside you shuts off. The feeling of rejection and isolation among your group.
I dont know how to describe how sad i am at this moment.i had it long long time before. Nd d day that jeremy left i told myself i wont allow this matter to reduce me into another living corpse like before.

I am so so so sad that i had to make d decision for other people. Its for sake of that someone.so i had  to sacrifice my own feeling . Becuz im not taking time to hate anymore. I just wanted to appreciate. And be appreciated. But not all thing that we planned happen as we wanted it to be.

Sometimes the worst thing and the bad thing is the right thing to do.i made a difficult decision just now so that people wont be worrying about me already. I have to. Pretend that i was.strong enuf to face it. Somehow i.told.myself it is a right thing to do. Its alrite sean. You are strong enuf to face such small matter. I know how important that person is to me. Thats why i chose not to burden .not another one.

Haha . Life is beautiful anyway. Its amazing when everything starts with a simple hello And become the hardest goodbye. But like mumy told me... dont regret for.letting go of somebody that you love.
Sad on sad. Happy on happy.F

So yeah.if you are meant to be with the person u loved... nothing can change it. I hope good things will happen. For now.. im moving one step forward and see if i could wait. All the best sean.


I pray . :)