Amazing.

it is so amazing that when i started to lose hope... He answers my prayers.

these few days, i've been postponing my goal to get a desired job real soon ... becuz im lack of self esteem, and frustration, depression and all the ssion-family indulging in my self. 

but i always prayed, i prayed hard to Him, everyday and giving thanks to Him eventhough i am in a deepest circumstances. 

sa nda tau la kenapa sekrang sa sakit hati ka, sakit jiwa ka,sakit mata, n sakit badan, sa nyanyi tu lagu thank you lord back to back dalam hati .. n then pray a lot. .

consequences of the story turns out to be a good one pula.. 

kalu urang lain sure dorang susah suda, mao cari rumah sewa, bilik sewa, and tempat bertanya, sure dorang lagi teruk keadaan daripada sa... sa skg even tho living alone, tp kira okay suda sebab sa tinggal ruma bkan bilik. some more, family support , abang sa baru2 dpat kerja suda, syukur sebab dia mula pandai jadi lelaki matang n ada kemajuan .. :) and now he is the one yg contact2 sa, says he is concerned about my condition.. wewh, benda yg jarang2 berlaku okaihh ... abang sa n sa bukan begitu rapat tapi since we're grown up now, kami dependent with each other in many ways... 

somehow, getting the family chain to be more polished. :) ..

thank You Lord . 

and i prayed for my self, prayed to have a strong heart to bear the things that i have to face, strong heart to be less painful when i see unwanted things, and yes it is answered...

He spent time with me everyday now , despite of my distance from his home, and i appreciated it. and yet when i saw enna's name on the text message that appeared on his phone, he immediately turn the phone over and ignored it. but i know, when he is off my sight, he will contact that girl :) 

i see it over and over again and i will sing the same gospel song in my heart, then i feel not so bad at all ..even so, i can still watch him and smiled. 

I tell God to give me a sign, why are we still connected even when i am already apart from him, i moved out and he get to know it, i am willing to be independent living alone but yet he was there. 

i dont know how it works, but somehow God had answered it in many ways. 

i dont know.. i dont know the ending i dont know what are we and i dont want to bother to think about it. 

i only can say God is amazing...

sa rasa syukur betul even sa macam ini sekarang, least sa still dapat makan n dapat survive. kerja tu bukan jatuh dari langit.. perlu mo cari kan .. .huhuhuhuh 

thank you Lord.. sebab selalu jaga sa dalam pelbagai cara.. 

sa rasa sa tidak juga loner after all sebab HE sents him to be my companion even tho we're like this, chaotic. 

 If HE wanna send other person, He could have done that too kan?  but why Ajin? 

neh ..sa pun teda jawapan . 

maybe  what i told myself is not what i should do. 

RUN .

no can do. 

FACE IT

yes can do.

boo ~

so i will continue to pray daily becuz i wanna know what i will become and what will the ending looks like. nobody can predict, its all in HIS hand. we planned it, but HE will decide it. 

so once again i am amazed with the Grace of God.. thank you for my friends that always encouraging me to get closer to HIM.  Bee Bee, Daphne, Dyveline, Nantong, Nold, Mex, Jason, Maxz, and many more.. 

Even Jye also been there and asked me to says prayr everyday,

and esp to my mummy and dad, they said put Him First in everything that we do. 

sa bukan alim and sa bukan religion fanatic.but i know all religion teaches us to do good and to be good . 

hurmmm yeah... i surrender myself to Him for only HE knows whats the best for me.. 

thank you Lord for being there and amazingly changed my perception towards life. I LOVE YOU.

good nite homosapiens...