Its Monday .

hello. 
i woke up and tadaaa~ its Monday to my face ! 
its not that long till my presentation... jeez  ~ i dont know how its gonna look like... more over  i dont really give my self into this thingy whilst im busying my self with craps such as thinking about my emotions and feeling. buuuudduuu lah ko ni shoney .sometimes jak la. hee ~

this Friday is the day that gonna indicate the level of how well im doing my internship and my studies for the whole bloody 3 years. 

my friends came back with relieve in their face just now.

i know they had passed the phase. then me. THIS friday is my turn to show my best yo~ 

i went out pecahlaju with Ajin at Mimie cafe just now. having in and yeah we stayed for a while downstairs at my place , watching him fixing his car accessories and adding some thingy .

but in a while as we talked, something comes up and mentioned about that chabey girl . 

so yeah, i made him mad and he went off. 

i dont know. sorry if im being too frank.i just dont care anymore. about what is happening around , just dont really care. you want me you want her you want yourself , so be it. 

i dont really wanna know whats the ending anymore. becuz nothing is so important than my future planning now. 

a friend of mine did ever asked me, what is more important to you, cookies or your heart ? if you have your heart and you dont have cookies, can you survive ? but then if you have the cookies first theeennnn the heart , can you survive ? she got her point there. giving some metaphors to me and let me think about the consequences of my choice. 

all of these while i thought about it. since ever i hook up with Jye... i had planned to kinda share a living with her. giving my efforts on us and put my last hope on us. but maybe God have a better plan, we didnt kinda really make it thru those months. who knows someday, we'll meet again and the vibe is still there ? :D

people said, being single is better.i've been there for many months before Ajin came again and look up for me. 

thus, i conclude that i AM single for all these while ! 

jhaha~ fuck that. single or not that just a status. what really matters is how you define it and the act determines you.

ZZZzzzz~ no matter what i said, nothing really change after all. i with my life, Jye with hers, and Ajin with his'. so yeah .. 

we are all survivors. 

my mum ever told me to plan my working future rather that bothering myself thinking about those love love thingy. BUT DO WE  REALLY  CAN DO THAT?  becuz i grow up with this life.. single > have a crush > hooking up> being happy> face problems > arguments > didnt make it > break up. 

and in between, i do good in study and do good in daily life. 

 hurmm ,... but sooner or later i need to put up my responsibility above all. im a grown up lady .

i need a job. i need a job to earn for my living. i cannot live forever burdening my family. 

so the point is ..after my presentation, imma settle all the problem happen in the huz , pay the debts and then imma out from that  house once and for all .:)

everything is still in process.. .

so
God bless me, God Bless you .. Have a blessed Day . 

nuff said. White Ghost just called that he's downstairs already  . Ciaoz~