What is a friend actually ?

Friend . what is the meaning of a friend actually ?mau seja sa tanya itu kawan ... muka saya macam ATM kah. people who call themselves a friend of mine are sometimes just depending on that word to rely on me. maybe sa ne memang banyak hutang bah di previous life , and now i have to accept things that happened to me.

 

sa bukan mao cakap apa la... but some people they really need to get their ass off my life. 

i am really irritated to people with bad attitude. i dont know is it from the way that i treat them or they just born fucked up . 

there's  some friends.

actually many species of them . they like to use the word can i borrow, to actually take things from me. 

first, i need to say, im irritated when people keep on looking for me to borrow money .

its not the total they borrowed that count, but the attitude of "nanti sa bayar balik" but then, they goes poof ! ilang dari pandangan .

then,  bila sudah susaaaaa balik, baru batang hidung pandai muncul and jual muka 1 sen sana!

sa mao tau sangat mentality people macam ini . 

sa mao seja cakap, if intention ko minta duit bukan mo pinjam, tapayah cakap nanti mao bayar. suda abis study lor kawan, ko nda muncul2. 

sa berkira kenapa, sebab sa pun perlu duit. sa teda kerja. and still depends on parent financial support. jadi bila sa harap suda ko nampak sa memang in dire need of money, paham2 la bila sa cakap tiada duit sudah. 

kalau sa billionaire sa kasi buat bah pondok made of duit kertas bagi orang2 macam ko . do not call urself a friend of mine if you had issues with your own mentality.

so selagi sa bukan jutawan, sa memang berkira kalau ko cakap akan bayar tapi tidak pernah membayar  balik..  

sepa2 yg berkaitan n terasa, bagusss la ! 

and secondly, sa sangat berkira tentang benda kepunyaan sa. kamu sudah guna kan ? suda pakai kan? tau la bah mao simpan ... .simpan seja ouw .. bukan susah ..simpan di tempat mana kamu ambik tu benda .

selalunya la bitches, they always borrow my sutffs, and the stuff went gone. pigi mana itu baraaannnng ah amoii ?? 

sa sakit hati bila benda kepunyaan sa hilang di tangan orang2 macam kamu, sa pernah kasi hilang barang kepunyaan org lain jadi sa tau perasaan tu . 

tapi apa species yg sa paling tidak suka ialah backstabber.
kalau itu orang baik dengan sa, in terms of friendship, sa 10x baik sama dia. 

tapi kalau itu orang betul2 sentiasa menyusahkan sa... 

sa tidak dapat hipokrit2 sana mau layan dia baik2.. kehipokritan sa cuma sampai tahap tegur2 seja, padahal kalau boleh sa tidak mau tergur .tp thanks to human nature, i still can say hi and bertanya khabar sama backstabbers yg panggil sa kawan.

ada satu tondu , i dont know what is going on in her mind. well, she actually uses my name and identity to create hatred between our friends. and when i found out, i keep myself diam . 

but those friends, they knew whose the culprit behind the scene. so i am safe, [these are called friends] becuz they try to figure things out before accusing me on things i dont do .

but this girl, gawd , annoying like seriously friggin annoying as she kept mentioning me ,what we did together and says that we're good friends. well, that was before moi . not anymore. 

i know she is not around and Thanks God for it, becuz she gonna get gone far from meh ~

another one, is irritating huzmate. 

gawd i experiences it since my internship.

sa terpaksa struggle sama diri sendiri  supaya sa nda meletup bila nampak org mcm tu tondu. 

sa sakit hati, bila she kept on annoys me and in same time kept bugging me asking for help and stuffs.

blah. 

i want her to get off my life. and yeah , sa mao move out suuuda fyeah~ 

sa tau sa akan jumppa ragam orang yg lebih teruk nanti tapi syukur sa tidak mau bergaul sama dia lagi .AMEN>.<

i forgive her, but i really dont wanna face it anymore.

but then sa tau bila tu orang betul2 ikhlas mao jadi kwan sa... 

sa sendiri seja yg tau .. tapayah mau explain. 

hoh .

kbai.