Something wakes me up suddenly. Looked at my watch. 12 sharp . F thats scary. Its cold and undescribable . My neck felt cold now. *sigh Apa lah benda tu. Sejuk seluruh badan sa skg. Tadi pun one of my karuks are giving weird act like swimming around the container rapidly with only one fin functioning. I thot it is dying but just now i take a look on it, still alive but is very not normal. Something bad is happening? few weeks before , sa termimpi gg patah. People said that its a sign of death among close members or family. God please don't let me into that temptation.
People abandon me i still could accept it. But not death. before, sis dieya hampir kena langgar gara2 cincin dia jatuh di jalanraya masa limpas jalan.sa betul2 mau jatuh dah jantung sa coz sa x mau ada apa apa bah berlaku.fuhh Tapi what makes me worried the most is this middle of the month. Semua orang pg convo, decluding me. During that week imma be alone in the office without my friends around, and also alone at home without sis dieya.. Not that i haven't went through this before! But i am worried that time if i couldn't afford to look up on myself. Scared Life sa skarang cuma tertumpu dgn kerja, rasa penat fullblast hari2, makan,tidur ,fb ing and twitter. Life afternight tu x ada suda. I reminisced that he always brought me everywhere at midnite for a stay out or car race and night life. Kadang2 rindu mau tengok laut at nite. But my life is limited to exhaustment here after work. Only weekend that could give me chance to rest and go out !
Oh i felt like an adult now. Being stuck with responsibilities and too many thing to worry about. Haha tidak lama rambut putih sa akan tumbuh lor. But sa happy hidup simple and worries sa cuma atas finance ,kerja,n gaya hidup. Sa tekad maw kasi panjang rambut and bleach kao2. N jadi perempuan dewasa. Haha ada la tu sa rancang.
I bought a pet fish again recently. Kawan panggil itu ikan laga. I called it karim. Wkwkwk sa teringat patung itik si mahani, i think its a funnay name. Ahaha And if my life is stable already. . I planned to have a car and a toy poddle. Wewh. Hidup single memang busy kah ? Wahaha. . . Sa rasa macam tdak mau kawen ne. Wkwkwk sa mau adopt baby gal. . And thats it.
Henpon sa? Sa tidak perlu risau pun mau topup atau tidak. Tpi whatsapp sa bikin habis keridit bah even standby mode. Budu ne,,,, teda2 pun sa pakai. So in a week, i reloaded my phone thrice times . Only becuz my subscription to the internet. Teman sms and kol? Wahaha sa cuma slalu berhubung dengan mum and sis dieya. Kdang2 my tommy boy friends will call and sometimes the guy friends. Tapi macam sa yang repel ne,.. Maybe feeling hatred towards guy havent faded. Lol sa nda dapat terima guy ooooh dalam idup sa dalam masa terdekat ne. ..-BUT a toMmy boy, yeah maybe.
hehe sis dieya suddenly mentioned about her tadi. dia cakap she always go sing k. Grr.. Terus sa teringat lagi dua bulan yg singkat tu. Suda2 ... Cant mention bout her nemore..huu Kami dua sis ada problem finance skng but i believe God will not let us down. sa yakin jak ne. Ngeee YAwnnnn** Gilak... apa la yang kasi bangun sa tu tadi...
IMma continue my beauty sleep now.. dONe merapu. Friends , family, haters and enemies, God bless us. Sweet dream
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