Oh Boring Night

gila .... im very fungry now...

don't know what the hell is happening inside my tummy ... huarrrghhh ~


my huzmates they went out again tonite and get wasted... yeah teenagers partying hard and they sure are happy like stoned by now .. (jello me)

with this fungriness and the heck i cannot even decide whether i have to eat or not at this moment,.. i feel so suffocated.

i stole two Hershey's nugget from the freezer just now. gah! still cannot ease off this fungriness.. maybe becuz imma waving the Japan flag soon then my hormone became so wildly imbalance. so far i could see that i do have a pretty bad temper and cant balance my emotion towards people.. too sensitive i guess ??

HAHA 

well i got my own reason for that allrite ? hurmmmm

Boo.

menyesal juga sa komen ouw...haha terconnect sendiri neh ~

dorg belum tau kot. kan ... .

sebab dorg neh bestie c Boyfie .

urmmmm ... 

rasa 'damn it' pun ada juga.

t(-.-t) FML .

Macam Macam Seja ini Hari

 Ini Betul ... 

kenapa ada juga lelaki yg rasa dia layak untuk dapat semua perempuan? well maybe itu perempuan yang rasa dia ketandusan lelaki sudah bah kali. .

ada juga Pk yg rasa dia terlampau baik untuk sepa2. and rasa dia better pastu act macam asshole . no offence.

boo~ ada juga manusia macam sa yg fikir macam ini sekarang. mengusutkan fikiran sendiri . 

herm . 

maybe itu alasan diorang untuk cari jalan mau avoid  ? who knows kan .

sa mau jadi different ini kali ... maybe a lil rebel could show the fugly truth. sa mau betul itu jalan kena tunjuk untuk sa. kenapa la perlu sakit lagi satu kali. macam inda beysa urang bilanngg~

bagus lagi jadi diri sendiri bah kan . 

eyah .. 

sebab saya bosan jadi failure. 

kalau kamu fikir kamu boleh senang2 dapat pmpuan ... teruskan .. 

kasi banyakkkkk banyakkkk itu pahala di dunia ahh ~ walaupun saya bukan alim tapi saya tau bah ..mana yg patut or mana yg tidak patut.

i told myself not to bother anymore. its their COMFORT ZONE. so be it .

jangan kacau itu teritory.

sa pun mau ada life sendiri . yg sa boleh pegang n tidak bagi lepas. 

maybe being alone could help it .?. 

alone seja bah.

saya penat jumpa banyak jenis orang di dunia. sebab sa tau fikiran dorang pun sama. perspective kita berlainan. jadi kasi begitu lah seja. 

saya bukan lagi budak 15 tahun. i got many more things to be done rather than to fret about it. ehh buduh la bah kan .rasa retarded ouw kalau sakit hati .hahahhaha

pakiew..

sudah sudah sudah ...jangan la fikir tu seannnn~

macam twin sa cakap ... banyak bah yg mau ko tapi ko mau yg satuuu itu juga. LOL .ngeh. 

tidak la...sa ada c jye. tapi dia kasi buat sa macam itu .. bah apa lagi mau cakap ? not all pretty gal have the luck to have companion in their life? jhahaha~ saying myself pretty lagi tu .

bukan apa.. maybe sebab sa gamukkkk bah .. macam itu doughnut .. .kena pusing2..kena baling2.. pastu kena makan...kalau inda habis ..buang.

JK. 

no lah.. i wanna love myself.. 

imma put myself in a condition that i wont regret for anything that i have done.

there. 

tu jak sa mau motivate diri sa hari2. belum mati lagi kalu ko ilang orang tersayang. my family is still there for me .. 

so yeah... it is what it is .. .

ciaoz ~ ~ <3

euw

sa inda tau blogging bah neh .

suddenly adddaaaa seja problem ...tu text kena highlight pun sa inda tau remove.. PUNYA NOOB 

jhahah ~ sepa buleh ajar sa mau edit tu ? ngeeh .. kalo ada la yg mau ajar. bah tengkies ah 

hey hey ~

Yesterday bah... sa fullblast tidur sampai 8.30pm and teada lagi makan apa pun .tapi buleh2 juga pigi membuang. bakass ~ 

heran. maybe meronta-ronta itu lemak bah kan minta makan .ehe. 

but then at night i had a kinda heavy meal di saaaana kedai kupi . 

lepas tu this morning i had roti canai n teh tarik .YUmmeh ~ tapi sa mcam beysa , muntah2 balik.

duiii ... entah kenapa . sejak dua menjak sa dari last internship week sa mula macam ini .burping and puke a lot. 

bilang itu M.A sa stress n imbalanced sleep and eating habit. 

paduli la.. cemana juga kalau aRi2 makan hati kan ? tidak habis2 people wanna hurt me. LOL .

by today @brandane datang p lawat sa. 

gosh i miss him dy ^_^ but @baxer pigi camping sana KB so next week baru dapat jumpa dia la. 

and today i had planned to have a day out with my youngest brother neh . kasi dia makan n jalan mana dia mau . 

kadang-kadang sa terfikir, sa ni kakak yg berguna kah tidak ? sebab sibling sa jarang bah jumpa sa.. .we have a complicated family tree.. and yeah have been thru lots of things thru'out my entire life... 

sa sayang diorang tapi inda tau cemana mau tunjuk.

lagipun sa ni bad tempered gal.. tu lah maybe people cannot tahan with me. 

HUHU.

apa bleh buat... sa mau jadi diri sendiri . begini la cerita dia. 

ngeh ... take it or leave it. sa nemaw paksa urang stay dalam hidup sa. 

but ni hari i want to appreciate the moments and yeah spend a little time that i have with my sibling ~! 

sebab lepas ini sa ada planning untuk diri sendiri . imma be totally a grown up minded and will have earning of my ownself. biar la kerja apa pun yg penting halal n dapat kasi tanggung diri sa sendiri . :P

aminnn bilang ~


so thats a wrap for this morning ^_^


bye Handsome SUNDAY !

WOOT WOOT! 

Oh My Dusun !

Eyah No doubt.... dusun sa teruk ... 

sudah banyak kwan2 komen sa.. hahha ada lagi yang men sindir berabiss nie. 

macam mana juga kalau conversion ari2 sa pakai english n bm.. ? 

hoho eyah i know i need to something with this. 

im a pure dusun so shouldnt forget my mother tongue.. 

nanti sa selalu la berbual dalam bahasa dusun dengan kawan2 lepas ini . 

ehehe ... DUIII GEA !

Sleepy Saturday !

hahaha! sleeping like fullblast today ~

yeah, since i ain't got nothing to do today , i put myself in pigging up mode, you know, sleeping the whole day    ?

Long before, i was that girl whom woke up as early as 6am in the morning at this day and dressed up nicely in polka dots , getting ready to church . :)

but since my life has changed completely after my parents get divorced, i followed my mummy .. convert . Voila ~ to those who knew me, they knew what am i in .

SAD story huh ? things like this ruins me ,. somehow in many way .  Studies, emotion , perspectives, and the way im living my life.

i became a rebel in myself.  sometimes. like many other times. i fought a lot with my mum . since i am a daddy's girl, i am not that close to mum .

but after the divorce, i get to talk a lot with her.

and then, after i get divorce myself, yeah i call it a divorce allright, i get messed up a lot .. i mean really waay a LOT~!

then i came up to a time that i give myself a break .

i met a lot of assholes along my way in the journey of my life. the asshole friends,  the idiot one, the one that cannot get along, the one who always backstabbing me, who borrowed money and pretending they dont remember it... lol all these faggots.

 but despite of those bittersweetness, i do have true friends. the one who are always there without me asking . they are silent. and apart. but they are always there. I LOVE YOU GUYS  .

i dont know. i got this one stupid habit which is if i am having bad mood, i'll avoid all. i mean everybody that is in my way .

i will keep my self in the room and sleep sleep sleep sleep . lol. i dont have a good life .

but they are still there for me. and to my family.. though i dont really get along with them, commitment as a daughter, but in other way we are united. the more pain we gained, the more we trying to get united. i know my mum has a plan for the family. deep inside me, i still love her deep deep deep.. no body can replace her . :) its true.

and my dad , yeah ... i used to hate him with allllll my heart. but now... i kinda feel that its a waste of time to hate, He still is my father. so in other word, i love him too  .

all of these i can conclude... no matter how we wanted to hate that person... well, we do hate them.. but in positive way, they had helped us in the learning of life..  you became more matured... think rationally and can decide whats good or bad for yourself .

so we need to take it and face it. eventhough im so emotional most of the time, least i know which is the good part to take.

i learned last night that it is not worth for me to get along with someone who treats like you're not important at all to them .

but we could still meet up, talk and hang out together. i dont want to avoid what i cannot avoid. haha bluff.

eyah .

so thats most of whats in my mind right now.

ciaoz ~~  <3