Hahahha ok ignore my header title yah.
Sa pun tia tau apa yg unplugged. Tapi yg sa tau sy mau archive ni feeling saat ni. Supaya sy ingat sampai bila bila.
Satu hari suntuk sa nda bhubung sama serizawa. Sebab kami kinda have a chatfight d night before. Tapi sy bagitau dia jgn risau la pasal sy. Sy biasa suda kena sakit macam ni malah lagi teruk dari yang ko buat. Pastu ni arri time keja sampai sy balik rumah.... without expectation...dia sent me txt. .. kan? Ego lelaki pandai jatuh bah... sy tau. Tapi tu jak la... sy mau reply pun sy rasa salah. Tidak reply pun sy rasa salah. So i decided to ignore. Anothet text came lagi yg tadi. Adeiii...karau bah mau reply... but i definitely wont wanna be hust again and again . Sy mau tunggu semua benda settle dulu. Kalau dia tau apa mau buat..bagus la. Kalu dia give up... ba eya seja la. Sy mau diam n observe ja... tee hee.
Tapi bukan tu yg benda major buat sy happy ni hari. So white ghost family member ada kol sy td. Lama kami berbual. Punya kuyak ada kah dia tanya gini... sean berapa lama suda ko nda kena kol org ni...mcm happy jak ko bcrita sama aku. Hahhaa .....adeii... sy easa pun gitu... laaaaaaaaaama ...berbulan2 suda teda org kol sy n sanggup crita2 sma sy gitu lama. Ekikiki ....tp siok la crita kami. Vahahha mama bah so funny... sy nda sangka she could answer chabey punya call n cakap gitu.he hee... n d sibling cakap... even u guys are separated...mum always anggap u as her daughter.. and we are siblings... huuuu.... im so touched. Sy gtau dia yg he is irreplacable. But yeah life must go on.
Ekiki...sy happy to get to know bout their latest news. Lama suda nda kol mama n dgr sora yuyu. Cant wait for unni to come back. Mo crita2 sma dia. Urmmm... the bond is too strong i still cnt let them go even my heart say so. I love them too much.
But sokay la.... sy dapat suda point of view sy yg sepatut patutnya la. Even mcm mana lonely pun hidup sy skg.... sy ada dorg..family.. my own fmly sama diorng. I hope God dont take this blessings away from me.
Sa kestau serizawa... sa busy sgt sama kerja... teda masa mau flirt or whatever. So dia harus faham kalau sy suda ckp sy mau satu... satu tu seja la sy mau... taapi tu la...karma bah kali kan... sy slalu kena sama difficult guy. White ghost...jer ..and serizawa. Chapter of my life . Sy paaaaling syg yg white ghost. Haha. Crita yg teda sepa boleh rebut dari sy. So bitter and so sweet... kalu crita tipu hidup2 paling manang la c mcnorman. But sy bersyukur. Im npt taking time to hate. Kalau sy mau syg...sa sayaang betul2 . Tp if ppl kc sia sia sy....sy pandai faham sendiri and take d first step to walk away.
And surprisingly serizawa still there. I thot this chapter pun x akan jadi. Tp sy nda mau expect apa pun lagi. Enufff...^^ kalau nda kawin pun tidak apa suda. Relationship is not my priority anymore ..after white ghost. Nobody could ever bring that story to me..*reminiscing.
It is the pain ...but it also is a remedy. Sebab bila sy ingat suma memories sy...sy senyumm... n menangis. So beautiful it makes you wanna cry bilang c avril.ahaha....
Slama sy being independent...sy pegang tu ayat appreciate...adapt... improvise. Sy slalu breakdown tp nda suda yg kritikal mcm dlu.
Huhu...apa la sy merapu ni . But i am glad. Hari ni suda berlalu. Lagi sejam masuk monday suda.
Kerja lagi.
I dont know what else gonna happen. Yg sy tau ...sy appreciate ja. ^^ apa jadi ..jadi lah kan...
Aaaaah sy happy. Even karma strikes on me
..i could fight it. Senyum dalam kesusahan.
Kenapa sy cakap ini karma ? Sebab sy ingat lagi dlu time sy reject satu guy. He claimed that he was so into me since highscul...pastu tjumpa sy balik time sy broke up suda sma white ghost. Sy cakap sy nda dapt trima dia. ... he turned to be a creepy psycho then. Tunggu bawah ruma sampai lewat malam... tarik2 sy n try to abuse... haiguuu banyak suda oh sy punya memory dari dlu. He made me to maki him like whatsoever... until sy graduate. Dia nampak sa jalan sama white ghost and he encountered him . Ofcoz sy pilih white ghostkan. Trauma sy sama tu llki obses... tp since then
... i always become unfortunate... maybe terlampau ramai suda yang menyumpah2 sy kan... mo sy mati apa smua... but i will fight till d end. Kalaau Tuhan kasi tentu sy mati... malam ni saat ni pun mmg sy mati kn. Hurm
Tu la.... even hidup ni bagi saya mcm mcm masalah... ada ja berkat yg sy rasa even bnda sekecil semut pun. Saya hargai
.ehehe... thnks ya white ghost's sibling...made me smile lots tonite...
N to serizawa too.
:))
Life is so very beautiful... indeed. Praise God.
Sa tdur la ni..isuk kja lagi... nunite.... ciaoz !!
Sa pun tia tau apa yg unplugged. Tapi yg sa tau sy mau archive ni feeling saat ni. Supaya sy ingat sampai bila bila.
Satu hari suntuk sa nda bhubung sama serizawa. Sebab kami kinda have a chatfight d night before. Tapi sy bagitau dia jgn risau la pasal sy. Sy biasa suda kena sakit macam ni malah lagi teruk dari yang ko buat. Pastu ni arri time keja sampai sy balik rumah.... without expectation...dia sent me txt. .. kan? Ego lelaki pandai jatuh bah... sy tau. Tapi tu jak la... sy mau reply pun sy rasa salah. Tidak reply pun sy rasa salah. So i decided to ignore. Anothet text came lagi yg tadi. Adeiii...karau bah mau reply... but i definitely wont wanna be hust again and again . Sy mau tunggu semua benda settle dulu. Kalau dia tau apa mau buat..bagus la. Kalu dia give up... ba eya seja la. Sy mau diam n observe ja... tee hee.
Tapi bukan tu yg benda major buat sy happy ni hari. So white ghost family member ada kol sy td. Lama kami berbual. Punya kuyak ada kah dia tanya gini... sean berapa lama suda ko nda kena kol org ni...mcm happy jak ko bcrita sama aku. Hahhaa .....adeii... sy easa pun gitu... laaaaaaaaaama ...berbulan2 suda teda org kol sy n sanggup crita2 sma sy gitu lama. Ekikiki ....tp siok la crita kami. Vahahha mama bah so funny... sy nda sangka she could answer chabey punya call n cakap gitu.he hee... n d sibling cakap... even u guys are separated...mum always anggap u as her daughter.. and we are siblings... huuuu.... im so touched. Sy gtau dia yg he is irreplacable. But yeah life must go on.
Ekiki...sy happy to get to know bout their latest news. Lama suda nda kol mama n dgr sora yuyu. Cant wait for unni to come back. Mo crita2 sma dia. Urmmm... the bond is too strong i still cnt let them go even my heart say so. I love them too much.
But sokay la.... sy dapat suda point of view sy yg sepatut patutnya la. Even mcm mana lonely pun hidup sy skg.... sy ada dorg..family.. my own fmly sama diorng. I hope God dont take this blessings away from me.
Sa kestau serizawa... sa busy sgt sama kerja... teda masa mau flirt or whatever. So dia harus faham kalau sy suda ckp sy mau satu... satu tu seja la sy mau... taapi tu la...karma bah kali kan... sy slalu kena sama difficult guy. White ghost...jer ..and serizawa. Chapter of my life . Sy paaaaling syg yg white ghost. Haha. Crita yg teda sepa boleh rebut dari sy. So bitter and so sweet... kalu crita tipu hidup2 paling manang la c mcnorman. But sy bersyukur. Im npt taking time to hate. Kalau sy mau syg...sa sayaang betul2 . Tp if ppl kc sia sia sy....sy pandai faham sendiri and take d first step to walk away.
And surprisingly serizawa still there. I thot this chapter pun x akan jadi. Tp sy nda mau expect apa pun lagi. Enufff...^^ kalau nda kawin pun tidak apa suda. Relationship is not my priority anymore ..after white ghost. Nobody could ever bring that story to me..*reminiscing.
It is the pain ...but it also is a remedy. Sebab bila sy ingat suma memories sy...sy senyumm... n menangis. So beautiful it makes you wanna cry bilang c avril.ahaha....
Slama sy being independent...sy pegang tu ayat appreciate...adapt... improvise. Sy slalu breakdown tp nda suda yg kritikal mcm dlu.
Huhu...apa la sy merapu ni . But i am glad. Hari ni suda berlalu. Lagi sejam masuk monday suda.
Kerja lagi.
I dont know what else gonna happen. Yg sy tau ...sy appreciate ja. ^^ apa jadi ..jadi lah kan...
Aaaaah sy happy. Even karma strikes on me
..i could fight it. Senyum dalam kesusahan.
Kenapa sy cakap ini karma ? Sebab sy ingat lagi dlu time sy reject satu guy. He claimed that he was so into me since highscul...pastu tjumpa sy balik time sy broke up suda sma white ghost. Sy cakap sy nda dapt trima dia. ... he turned to be a creepy psycho then. Tunggu bawah ruma sampai lewat malam... tarik2 sy n try to abuse... haiguuu banyak suda oh sy punya memory dari dlu. He made me to maki him like whatsoever... until sy graduate. Dia nampak sa jalan sama white ghost and he encountered him . Ofcoz sy pilih white ghostkan. Trauma sy sama tu llki obses... tp since then
... i always become unfortunate... maybe terlampau ramai suda yang menyumpah2 sy kan... mo sy mati apa smua... but i will fight till d end. Kalaau Tuhan kasi tentu sy mati... malam ni saat ni pun mmg sy mati kn. Hurm
Tu la.... even hidup ni bagi saya mcm mcm masalah... ada ja berkat yg sy rasa even bnda sekecil semut pun. Saya hargai
.ehehe... thnks ya white ghost's sibling...made me smile lots tonite...
N to serizawa too.
:))
Life is so very beautiful... indeed. Praise God.
Sa tdur la ni..isuk kja lagi... nunite.... ciaoz !!
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