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Semuaaaa orang tanya fb sa mna suda.... mummy daddy pun tanya knp sa hilanggg.... haiguu... bukan sa yg kena risau...tp fb sa bah ygkena risau... fine... im on fb again by today. Apa mau jadi... kasi jadi la...bahahaha... puas hati semuaaa org. Muah muah !♡♥♡♥♥


Ok ciaozzz !

Hehehe^^

Hello good morning

 ^^

Saya happy ni kemarin 

Twas a fullblast celebration

Kawan is getting married yesterday 

But we only can  congratulate him from here

Hehe owh wow tahun ni ja berapa bulan seja sudah berlalu

Ramai kawan kawan sudah kasi end up zaman bujang diorg

Hehe kalau yg macam kita kita ni...better dont first

:)

Sa berfikir

Not every person that having a relationship could be happy

Some were Actually single and satisfied

Hehe

 Okay 

Now another phrases frm my beautiful girlfriend bee bee is..

Not every beautiful people are happy being in a relationship. 

She say we are among those. 

Haha 

Sa sumantik kah juga?

Bah kasi eya jak la

Week passed.

I am breathing happily 

Semalam sa happy sebab serizawa cakap sa nda besar. I have a big frame thats all. 

Sa santiik dia bilang. Gee pun cakap kalu urg tu ikhlas mo sama kita dia mauuu seja tuh.

Haha 

Aiya. 

Dear sad people out there

I know we are having this tiring life and situation around

But keep urself reallly down to earth

Be hhmble

Jadi lah pemaaf

And never neglect GOd ..family and friends. They mght cannot help you

With your problem.

But they can ease those pain even just a bit

Sa pray banyaaak

Sa tau teda guna membenci or membalas

This is the last stage of us human race

We pay for what we do

Same like karma

Only worst thing will roll over

Kamu nda takut Tuhan kah?

Masa kamu buat jahat

Hohh

I fear oh

Sa teda masa suda mo kumpul2 sa punya jahat ni

Haha 

Haiihh

Tapi tu jak la 

Each time i was at my lowest

Prayer faith and effort yg boleh membantu sa. 

Family n friends are the best remedy.

Anddd.... do learn to stand up on our own feet. Ok?

Wkwkw haiya rugi oh people took me for granted. 

I swear i Can make people hppy 

And hate me

Depends.

Hihi 

Sa bersyukur sa kena bagi hidup yg baaanyak dugaan n pemberian 

In one time. 

Thanks GOd.

Off to work baby ~♡♥ 

Ciaoz !!

DEAR JEREMY MCNORMAN

The best thing ever happened to me in my 20's : you

The best moment i remember about you : having u beside me

Soon after waking up in the morning .

How u making me happy : by doing nothing.  As i remembered your name n thinks about u.. my heart blossoms.. :) i love you

Cute things that you did for me : playing guitar and sing songs for me. And wrapping thAt money note into heart-shaped .n gave it to me. ^^

Things i cant forget ever : having u knelt down and proposed to me to be your girlfriend. Meeting your family.  looking at my finger as u put that ring into it. Eating breakfast with u and dinner. Cooking for u and seeing u eat it happily.. None. I forget none about you.


What makes me cry : you. Those bitches who attacked me and when i missed you when u are not around.

What makes me cant be mad towards you : simply by when u saying that u loved and missed me so.


 What i loved about u : your smile.. and your fragrance. And your voice.everything about you.


What makes me sad : when ellly wanda n ain came in and interrupted our happy relationship



You know... i am not gonna  mad about everything that had happened. Choices. It is all about choices .

I appreciated everything about us.. i misses us :'))

Well to those girls... maybe they can laugh now but only GOd can judge. 

I done nothing wrong in this relationshp so i know i will be just fine.

So perhaps  those rumors were true huh? I only can  say that i assumed that he is drunk by that time. And elly is a spoiled girl. But i think chemistry does have a role in this,aint it ? Go ahead girls. Do as u like. Stab me and kill me a thousand times. But i will make sure imma stay alive and keep moving on. All i know is jeremy took my heart away and still have it.

 Sokay... i pray hard that all these gonna be better . Very soon. God bless you haters.



Ciaoz.

                                         P/s : i♡jeremy^^

Happy happy ^^

Hehe...its my day out again with my friends. Sa heppy sebab sa masih ada dorg yg sntiasa di sisi sa.  Start from noon to late evening im always on the go. Nice nice ^^
Hehe

That is emut. She's one of my girlfriends.  Kami jalaaaaaan sampai sakit kaki .. sebab mau p survey price gadget n beli2 gadgets. Fun day luhh... sebab sa nda stress kalu sa ada benda mo buat.

Stress bah tu di tempat kerja. Ngee...


N i am happy sebab today mummy called and talked to me. The first question she gave is about my dear jeremyy tee hee... sa hepy. Nda tau kenapa saa heppy. Im just happy tat mummy concern bout him...aww... ♡♥♡♥♡♥♥
And im happy too becuz he is getting better with his career. Ehehe i pray everyday for him. I pray that may God be always with him and that he is guided to the right path and no bad things gonna happened and that God will protect him close to Him when i am very much far apart and when i am not around. #i♡jeremy

Hehe... im happy to becuz i gave a reward to myself. Mummy ever said.. Dont let ur tears wasted for people that doesnt know how to appreciate u
 Every single tears that fall for the pain we felt... someday the person will had its payback.let GOd judges.

We went around and stay at many places.
. Paling2 pun pasal mo curi wifi seja.. haha.. betul2 wordless saturday oh.im happy that i get all this blessing. My mum... my dear jeremy... my dear girlfriends ..my dear guy friends... and all my haters...

Jehe im playing with my faces. Fenattt sua masa tu...nasib bek dpt tahan lg . Semalam x dapat tidur sampai 4am. Insomnia yg makin mnjadi2. Uhh..

Kami tunggu yg lain cuz dorg keja sampai petang. Huu

.. kalu sa ...sa nda tahan ouh kerja ari2 

..ergghhh tpi kalu ada tanggungan suda... begitu lah yg sepatutnya kan..

Hihi...im blogging thru my phone. Susa jg tp wat to do ..#SORRY FOR ALL THE DAMN TYPOS

 Ehehe... so we went back in the evening... happily reach home and waited jeremy back from church. ♡

 Sa macam kena hypnotized ni... i love to mention his name in every word. Love him much... huhu ...even if sa kehilangan dia maybe nxt time...sa bersyukur seja sebab he is the best thing ever happened to me. I love him :))♡ it is truE

..

Sa mo thank you sama tu tondu yg suka attack sa

.. sa harap dia start la menghargai orang yg dia sayang kalu dia kena balasan suda. K elly? U maybe happy kalu sa kena ketawa sana sini kan. But yeah... choices in on every each of us. Sa pernah kena attack dari internet sebelum2 ni. So sa ok seja dgn yg baru ni. If i dont have haters then there is something wrong with me. Anyway to this girl elly i hope she can have the feeling yg mcam mana kalu dia punyya org kesygan kena kacau. Amen. Karma is always there. Tapi maybe len kali lah kan?? Sa mau diam ja skg. Childish bah begitu tu. Kasi bagi seja la org buat jahat. 

I think im amazing cuz i always kena benda macam ni when i started to have a happy life..but with faith prayer and effort ... sa survive lagi. 

My heart suda decide. Jadi i wont run Away. Hehe 

♡[iwontgiveup]

 Hehe..  ok la wanna charge my hp dlu. Enuf suda sa merapu...cau cincaU dlu la... hehe ciaozz.

Ps: i♡JEREMY.:)

KK today ~

lagi beberapa jam saya balik sudah ... huhuhuhu ... sangat berat hati . 

last nite me mummy and lil brothers hang out and makan2 and round2 hometown ... im gonna miss the food and them .. :{

entah kenapa hari ni berat sgt hati sa mo jalan . erghhh ...palis2 .. 
 i use lil brother's room to sleep over last nite becuz sa pinjam lappy dia.. hihuuu ...sini berabis guna internet sebab nnt di kk teda wifi tu tempat. ouwf..kasiiiannn ...sa bawa lappy sa mo kasi fix di sini ..tp so sad the kedai tutup due to celebrating lunar new year ~ bukan nasib sa lah tu . 


yesterday i was siok2 typing my blog when suddenly bobby shout to me, waaaa blog jie2 santikk oh .. then mummy eavesdrop kami . ... truss awkward moment sebab mummy tanya, ko ada blog? apa blog ko ? mummy suka ni baca2 blog ... MATAII ~ tettt

sa nda tau lah kalu dia baca ni blog sa kena pancung kah apa..wkwkkw...but i didnt tell her.. sooner or later she'll find it out juga.. 

hurm, if i die bah . dorg kasi buat apa sama suma link sa dlm internet ah ? will my family archives it ? will my boyfriend take care of it ? tapi yang pasti kalu sa teda suda,... biar la fb sa macam tu seja .. 

my pictures and my memories.. .i want to be remembered. no matter you remembered me over a good or bad things. keep me in your mind. i know i am nobody .but i think kasi biar seja lah tu fb.

uikk..macam mo pigi mati pula.. palis2.. shoney ni celupar oh ...haha

i talked with my girlfriend last nite... she too , having a hectic busy life like me. dia lagiiii la busy... need to contact the contractors even afterwork . haiguu ... sa ne ..busy time working hour seja.. .tapi lepas balik tu ...rasa penat yg macam terkumpul satu minggu ba... rasa tu x dengan 5 hari . apa ko rasa?? urenn kan... stobery la. .. hahaha 


tambah  lagi sa ambik overtime .. ummphh memang sodapp lah penat dia . nanti yg student mengeluh2 malas pi kelas tu , KAMU RASA LAH KALU TIME KERJA NANTI. 


weee ~ mummy did asked bout pursuing my study .. i said yes , soon but dunno when . kalu bekerja sa boleh kumpul duit sendiri and tolong2 dorg.. .kalu study .sa kasi tulung habis duit parent seja.. kan ? kan ? kalu stuju angguk kepala.. ngekk ~ ^_^


she is going to take her master soon . maybe dulu la sa kaki belajar.. tp skg sa aim mo cari duit. MONEY . tahun ne mesti kumpul banyak2.. bukan mo kawin . tapi sa mo kasi improve life sa... .amennn bilang. 

um um .... and jeremy slalu cakap be independent . jangan tlalu soft hearted. huhaiii ..memang sa slalu berlembut.. tu lah kali slalu kena took advantage kan . 


thanks dear , for being with me <3

anyway... sa ada recipe baru mo share sini ... .fried oyster mushroom !

oyster mushroom , dip into egg yolk, then dip into ADABI powder , then deep fry it. hahaha...betul ni ..sedappp gilak .rasa macam ayam tapi teksture dia macam cendawan .eh memang pun cendawan .


but ... jangan telampau makan .. its oily . not good for our health .. ok ...

ni pun little brother yg teach me . skali sa yg cuba masak ..licin ba dorg makan ... tee hee ~ (like a boss) 

xx .... lain2 topic.. semalam sa stay up late.. kasi siap another fansign requests...  sampai salah2 spell nama... tarukk kan sa... tp i hope my friends wud gonna like it .sa happy sebab sa jumpa technique baru dalam editing. booyah ~ achievement untuk semalam .. fansign ni sa nda tau ba apa benda ..tapi it all started when a friend from phillipines sent me an fb message and request for a fansign . paling epic sa pigi google lagi apa tu fansign ... wkwkkwkwkwk.. .punya sandii ..then berterusan bila kawan2 yg lain pun request for fs. macam siok kan ...snap pic sendiri tapi dgn nama c kawan. somehow i feel like camwhoring.. .tett... tapi tu jak la.. .macam tu seja.. kalu people mau judge sa apa bowleyh buat ~~


i even did my YOUTUBE marathon. .. ohh i cant live without the internet seriously. sa mo subs balik lah tu berukband .. ko tunggu la.. wkwkkw

anddd~  today for sure sa akan sedih lagi balik sebab habis suda cuti sa di sini kampung.  if only sa ada kereta .. sa balik tu tiap ujung minggu,.  


rather than life in the city, the night life and all that,  i'd rather choose my sweet home. maybe sekali sekala boleh la. i want my old shape back .. urghh ...tp memang bah kalu tondu cepat naik tu berat badan ...susa mo kasi turun . 


kan ??

ok i wanna share one vid clip from youtube. it is merely an old video but i still wanna share it. sa ada share ni duuuuuuuuuulu di blog lama sa yg suda kena terminate tapi sa tidak pandai lupa nie  vid clip .. .so click link di bawah ni to be directed okaeyh ~^^ 

extraordinary ~

so i guess thats a wrap for now... going to pack my bag first.. happy tuesday ~


#reminder for myself... ASH WEDNESDAY is about tomorrow. chinnggg~ 

BACK HOME . HOME YUMMEH HOME ~

its Lunar new year. ... wanna wish my self and you : 
xin nian kuai le , wan shi ru yi ~~~ hahaha gong xi gong xi fa cai ~!

i went back to my hometown during CNY .and am still here.. i am so very glad to be back .

well it is becuz i am prepared with what it takes . .*crickets crickets crickets* ..gahh ..what i am trying to say is that i am not coming home with bare hands like usual anymore. 

this year  ..well. .umm let say this month , i brought some gifts to them . mummy and little brothers. not so expensive stuffs, but the look in their face while receiving it, its priceless .. .

and it feels good to be able to spend your family eat and buying stuffs. even mum gave the different expression to me after all . maybe i am not that useless after all. i put my whole budget for this trip and yes i am sure i could cope my own expenses when i go back to that hectic life in the city soon . sob.. .it is days before i am going back . aaarghh ..working life sure is tiring . i feel old already ..wkwkkw..somehow friends cheers me up and yeah thats what i needed. 

i went back alone this time. and i saw my lil brothers, damn they're getting taller than me !! much much more taller than me ...the thing is, they're just entering high school for good sake. argh ~~ okay sa pindik ...sa terima ituh . hahaha..

aand another thing ..sa happy, sebaaab sa n Jeremy nda gaduh2 suda. oh well , he is correct, the problem that we are facing is not for the whole world concern. i know he is working hard for his future. sa segan juga biila pi bilik dia and figured out something about him... gawd.. since a kid he is a brilliant student. sedangkan sa ni iQ nda berapa tinggi .. result pun cukup2 makan seja.. wkwk tapi i'm happy that he is willing to love me . um umm ...bought him a Varsity jacket. the color is my fav. tp teda size sa.. tp dia nda pakai selalu bah ..sayang kunu ... esesehh .. i wanted to share what i earned with him .made a decision , apa mo jadi , jadi laa... apa yg kami ada skg tu ja yg sa pegang .. all i know is i fall for him again and again even each time sa marah sama dia. ngee.. mara sebab small matter. (ok i am childish i knw)

cant deny it sometimes i needed him and he is busy with work . but he told me he felt the same too .aww.. .

i still remembered his mum called , and told me not to worry bout his son  . he is showing his willingness to work for his future. ummm .. what a warm family they are...

haiyaaa..sa mo cerita pasal di rumah ba inih ... tapi terikut2 emosi kan..duih ..hahah
sokay, had a long talk with mummy the first night i'd arrived home. she asked me bout jeremy and i told her everything. 
she told me that before we decide on doing something, should concern bout our self first thing first. MONEY and SHELTER . these two things are the essentials of having a life as an adult. yeah i know i am growing up .

tapi ada satu tu perbualan lucu ne ,
and it goes like this

mum : adik , kerja ko skg tu gov ka swasta ?
me : nGo. tapi link sama gov juga.. macam third party la n bla3
mum : di sini ada juga tu jawatan kosong.. baru kena buka tu bangunan . 2.5k gaji bersih 
me : oh ya kaa... ok
mum : yupp...ehh kenapa ko nda masukk tu poris?? ramai tu anak kawan mummy yg p  apply ...
me : poris ? apa tuh may ?
mum : astaga... tu pun ko tidak tau ka... yg perhutanan tu baaa~ bagus juga tu ... memang start dari bawah tp at least dia keraja tetap ..
me : (pokerface) oh FOREST ...~~ lol bukan poris ba mummy...
mum : orang sabah style baaa ~
( then both of us cracked our laugh out loud )

hehe ..lucu ba mummy. 
we went to church ...and she was there sitting in front of me. i dont know why i am being so emotional my tears dropped . i rindu her so much that i wanna hug her that time. she was there in front of me still i rindu her that much . ..tapi sa cover la sebab ada ensemboi duduk sebelah sa tengok2 sa.. wkwkw. .dia nampak kali tu sa punya    eye water jatuh . ngekk~~


then we eat together after church . sa happy oh dapat jadi someone i am right now.  i wish i could give more to mum .maybe some other day .
banyak planning sa ni tahun ,tapi duit la mo kumpul berabis .


huhaiii ... 

last night i cant sleep so i made my delayed requests of fansigns to my dear friends in fb. haha kasi happy2 diri juga ba tu snap snap snap gmbar sendiri yg gandut n pindikk .. damn my face sangat nampak penat.

urm urm ..sa terima lah ni kenyataan yg sa memang ada worst fatigue . mum told me to rajin2 buat face scrub and treatment. jangan pakai mekap. haha ok mum. ..  i wont . memang sa pi keraja pun macam zombie idup . haha. budu . rambut serabai2.  pastu baju ruma lagi . adedeii ..tp paduli la.. my friends knows how do i really look like and my boyfie loves me. hehe thats all i needed. not some jealous haters and posers.. .

haha .. ya la .im getting happier with life . life is really a good teacher. sa tau pendirian sa nda tetap. but it amazes me how God did His work in His very own way. trust in Him , God never leave us alone. no matter what. Prayer + effort  . that what should be applied in every single thing we do  . 

when life gave me a thousand reason to cry and fall, i managed to find way thru the darkness and yeah still here alive and surviving. 

IMPROVISE, ADAPT AND NEVER GIVE UP .. 

makin kita membesar makin banyak perkara yg berlaku .so semua tu depends sama diri sendiri sama ada kita mau perkara tu memakan diri kita n buat kita terus jatuh ataupun jatuh dan terus cuba lagi . . maybe saya gagal dalam beberapa perkara.. tapi saya sedar tidak semua benda yg kita mahu tu kita akan dapat. but God will replace it with even better plan ahead.  [have faith]  

i know when i go back i need to face the fact that i could be expelled from work anytime as it is a non governmental job and i know the fact that i am on my own to earn for my living. but i also keep this in mind...rezeki tu ada kalu dicari .. hurm hurm ..no more sad stories for love life and no more stupid problems from burdening so-called friends.. i dont want to get involved with friend's problem unless is it reasonable and worth to be help with .  betul2 saya jera kena pijak ..haha. . 

.

ok time to masak petang now... got to go ~ 


                                         ciaoz ^^

Once upon a Wednesday~

sajuuukkkk..~ sajukkkk~~ damn...punya sejuk di office skg ni...sa pakai long sleeves pun nda juga dapat rasa panas... ada tu aunty di tempat kerja...she loves to put the volume to the lowest and swing to the max.. gilaaaaak/...semua kami pun ada flu and sneezing suda except her.. memang creepy...

sa semakin sihat ..sebab sa back to drinking habit baru2...stress kerja n life ..n finance..

tapi since then..i live another way around.. sa start workout suda... push up, lari2 ...sit up...tukar diet makanan...cewahh...kalu jadi kici lagi balik..aminn la...haha kalu nda dapat... jadi plus sized babe la seja..bebeh la sangat kan .ngee

my Dear said semua kasi kecil esp tummy except my humps and my boobies ..hahah..opps..tett..

tu lah berusaha la nie.. nda lama lagi birthday tu urang.. sa harap dapat celeb sama dia la nie nnt... tu pun kalu dapat. 

We made up and fix our relationship becuz of my misunderstanding week ago...ada satu TONDU ... budak DPIM jua... she was like ...havin affair with jeremy ..tp rupanya they just played stupid prank on me.. OH YEAH ?? prank la sangat kalu sampai p mengaku sama public yg dorg tu mau kwin suda..n i turns out to be his EX. dafuq... sa terus mengamuk macam boleh bunuh orang masa itu juga.. 

but then i managed to figure out the truth and yes..the beetch yg main2 seja. .KEBIASAAN dia pula main2 macam tu .sa harap kou kena karma.. sebab kenapa ?? lepas seja tu hal, few days after that they still said that sa cari hal sama dorg..(yes there were bunch of these *&%&#%) 

so i told jeremy ...either you trusted your backstabber friends or your own wifey... its up to you .. and so ...we became much more closer than before. 

urm sure semua orang ada problem dalam hubungan bah kan...common things ... and ada ja third party yg menggangu . 

ow well ... sokay la..sa lega sebab skg things became much better.. :) i love him . 

.

urm urm...

its lunch hour now..so im going to have my lunchies first... pecahlaju + lunch = brunchie. ..ngeee~~

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kbye.