A Little Birthday Surprise ~ WOAHH ^_^

while everybody is not in the mood and that's including me, there's a little surprise for a friend in the house ~ fancy little birthday surprise ~  and we sang the birthday song in classic tone, haha



and continues to the grabbing for the CAKE ! i took a slice and yeah a cup of COKE ! Fatty calls again :))

here's a sneak peak of the birthday girl and this wonderful evening ! a wrap for my day ^_^ ciaozzz 

I used to Fall for my own best friend .

YES.THAT is TRUE. 

i kept that feeling since i knew my best friend.  during high school, people thought that we were dating but the truth is i do feel i wish it was true. better much. but then i realized we cannot have everything that we wished for. and becuz i have met ajin soon after that .so i just stay in the FRIEND ZONE, and gladly we are still bestfriend until today . I MISS THAT PERSON SOMEHOW .  :) memories do make us smile huh ? it doesn't count whether it is a sad one or a happy one. 

WELL I'M SO GAY ~ 

i just wish that person happiness and luck for the rest of that person's life. :)
 

 
i got JYE now, and that is more than enough .<3

here's to all the people that i LOVE !

XoXO FROM me > Le F.

boring and that is all about.

im bored. and sad. and i dont like this feeling.

the loneliness.  my heart has this kind of loneliness that never fades still .

once i felt neglected, i can be very upset and that is my major problem. i start to ignore everybody and there is no exception.

i dont know. somehow i had these tears went down to my cheek just now without realizing it. 

well maybe im sad because of that THAT .. but yeah maybe because my boyfie is way too busy at this moment and we havent been talking for like a WHILE . *sigh .

do girls always feel like this or is it just me ? i dont know . 

i went out lunching but i dont have the appetite , back to office with blank and emptiness in my mind. 

duhh .. 

tolong stop jadi EMO . 

i dont like my new me. 

this is not me. not me not me. 

maybe i brought back  all the shitty feeling and mixed them up all together and gave me this kind of shitty emotion. nevertheless, i still could faking my smile to my colleagues. 

* hoh.

if i could, i wanna rest for the whole time that i could get and without any disturbance. i tend to be so fragile in heart and easily gets hurt. ohwell... if you cannot stand me, leave me ALONE. 

too bored... i cannot even type my report. too ..... empty. 

sleep ? boss is around the corner. 

going back home ? sure, in another 2-3 hours. 

so here i am stuck with my feeling. useless feeling. tlong pergi jauh2 lah ... i dont wanna waste my teenage life. ha ha. 

BLAH ~! 

DIA SUDAH BALIK .

FROM KOTA KINABALU TO KUALA LUMPUR TO SANDAKAN . 

my boyfie is back .. :)

dalam tiga hari n dua malam she was with her sister during i n KL, durang busyyyyy shopping n lalan2. 

kami teada berkol, teada juga bertexting. ada juga mun mao cakap good morning or good night .. LOL .somehow i felt neglected for a while. trepp poreber alone kunun ne.

itu sa teada kira as texting or calling. urm . i know i need to get used to it.

but by the way, im glad she is safely arrived to her hometown .

its June 6 today and another 4 days will be our monthsary .

yeap walaupun baru sekijap urang bilang.. :)


im glad i had her in my life. 

She take me as i am, love me heartfully and she accept me just the way i am . 

although sometimes we do argued but yeah , when you are willing to be with someone you need to accept and be ready for every risks that might rolling down to you. 

DONT ASK AND DONT WHY To me. i know what i do. 

i hope this aint a joke as i am taking a new step of turning into  a new leaf in my chapter of life and yeah so far i am not regretting for what i have found and now im gladly telling YOU i am happy . 

some voices told me not to , but my heart tells me the other way . 

and to her, JYE CHIN , i know this is hard , sometimes we are having hard times and yeah i know its what we have to face, you got me , and i got you. that's all matters. 

THANK YOU for choosing me and being with me thou smtimes i irritates you so much till you feel like wanna give up .

but i know this is not gonna be a short story . i'll take chances and appreciate.

all i need is YOU to understand and i'll do the same for you <3

True confession

I dont care .

saya mampu cakap itu seja sebab saya tahu bila saya buat apa pun things just wont get right.

HE ... TEXTED me. and this time yes... he'll be travelling outta here . i mean . FAR .

tapi why . why would you wanna let me know everytime you are leaving ? there's this BIG QUESTION MARK in ma mind telling me asking me and urging me to find the answer .


dear YOU , Homosapien, IF YOU STILL have this vibe towards me, why dju left at the first place? You said that you DIDN'T love her. and yes you are being with her after you SLEPT with her.

that reason is enough for you to left and yeah you appeared in my life again and again . i dont like it that way . know that ?

i started my life with you, and you ended it without mercy . FUCK .

now i wish that everytime you FUCKED her (ANY GIRL YOU SLEPT WITH) , you will remind of me.

he told me he'll be going to korea. and what the heck are you going to do there i dont know.

but then  i do feel a bit pain in me. entah .sa nemaw fikir bah .sa ada hidup baru suda. sa ada memories yang baru .ya and this is a tribute from me to you , AJIN

i dont think i would find any other guy like you anymore, and thats the point ! ^_^ saya malas sudah maw rasa heartbreak ne kalo boleh . i admit those memories are too good to be forgotten but then we left it there rotten .

tiapa. nobody CAN predict the future. everybody says that you are my other half since we have been dating for more than 6 years ++ 2006-2013. even my family gave the sign.


and YOU. BLEW .IT .  nope... i wont gonna put my blame on you this time. we are in the new year and new resolution. lol. its already JUNE for God sake. 

bah eyah la.. dari ko seja bah ...ko maw jalan p seluruh dunia and becoming what you dreamt of ,saya DOAKAN KEBAHAGIAAN DIRI KO SANA . 

ko mau jadi free lancer, ko mau jadi freeman , and having fans around your waist (direct translation) damnit , yah GO AHEAD . PURSUE your dream, do what you wish for, go ahead. achieve them. 

and as for me ..  I WISH I am the happiest chic on earth . that's all i wanna be and wishing for  .


so , BON VOYAGE to you . take good care of yourself and stop being so arrogant . GOD Bless you . 




                                                            ~~~~~~ L O V E is OUCH !

if i could .

i just wish that this is not a dream . and also aint a joke. i cannot take another heartbreak once again .

NUFF SAID.

Saya tidak suka itu pegawai

So hypocrite.

i rather see him to be mad than giving us muka tembok sana... thicker than the great wall of CHINA !!

kalau kau ada sini dari awal kau nampak bah kami buat kerja bukan kami online macam budu sini inda tau buat kerja.  fark.

 
saya tidak sabar au habis ni internship and get my ass out of this stupid retarded place...

 kalau boleh kan saya ada magic sa sudah buat macam2 yang bikin saya senang ati ... baaaagus lagi .PUIH