SLIGHTLY STUPID.

I ARGUED WITH JEREMY LAST TUESDAY NIGHT

i dont know what was in my mind by that time. we argued in the phone...since he is far from me.. :S

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i think i think way too much already .lol

sa tau sa yang over reacted... hoho

i accused him on doing the things that he did not. jahat oh sa... and when he called, he was on duty that night. demam panas lagi .hukk...sa pun sakit jua time ni.

musim sakit bah kan ...jeremy was ordered to work overnight to watch over the crops and stuffs....then he'll just gonna be back during  the breaking dawn...mau satu minggu suda kami seldom brcontact...hmm

sa tau sa terlampau banyak fikir..traumatized from my past. .. the worst thing that i said to him is that i said about seeking for other . and mingling around. hurmmm ..BODDOOh ko shoney.. 

and he didnt raise his voice to me. eventho i know i had hurt him with those words. bayangkan ko sakit2 and kerja ot lagi terus kena tuduh bukan2 ..nda bikin panas kah tu. ...

hekhek... ntah la sa nie... i think i need to calm down n nda fikir gitu jahat .sa tau tu manager dia was very fond of him ..and i know he was on his way to success... (pray for him ) 

heheh tapi kami berbaik sudah lah ...sa yg minta maaf sama dia... adeiii ... hehe

hopefully our relationship will be blessed . AMEN

other story pula... semalam dunia kecoh2 pasal tu kiamat... armageddon . dui.

ada lagi yg cakap 3 days of darkness..but here i am still , in the office, blogging... lulz..

tapi sa kena bagi ne video bah ...lucu ne..hahahah

here it is

The Last day on Earth!!

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wkwkwk...sekali ini hari ...kecoh lagi urang marah2 pasal teda kiamat. budu. .

sa jalan kaki p kerja...teda tambang.. jera oh naik teksi... tapi sekali tu hujan...so fortunately my friend eyla gave me a ride...

sa mau bersyukur sama Tuhan sebab jawab prayer sa.. 

tu hari ba, sa jalan2 kaki pi kerja...sa berpeluh macam buduh sana... then sa stop di satu tembok, duduk sambil merungut2,... terus sa pray sa cakap sa mau ada korita,...atau kasi sa cara lain untuk sampai di tempat kerja without getting sweaty ...sa mau itu seja .. kereta untuk sa pakai p kerja...lulx...sekali kena jawab sa punya prayer... i love you God. hehhe

lucu lah bah...

hehhe ...hurm...kalau betul la manusia boleh ramal kiamat, everyone should be a God. but yeah, try to sacrifice your whole life dulu baru cakap berabis. keh?? 

btw tahun ni mcam awal tahun juga,sa celebrate sendiri2 di kk...

teda cuti ...huhuhu 

sa kerja dulu ..ciaoz !

TAKE OVER CONTROL

So i'm writing again. 

saying that im leaving and cant spend time on blogging is one thing,. .. but yeah i did left.

and eventually i feel like telling some of my recent story.

LOTS OF THING HAD happened recently and some are just good news for me.. and some are really sad ones.

i moved out...yeah ...finally.

Mia moved out and leaves Lana alone.

they went to separate ways.

and its a good thing to Mia though.

but the bad thing she argued with her useless brother and to be truth, he is a total jerk to Mia.

really. 

becuz of money matter, he is willing to kill Mia. the fuck ? 

so like Mia has always felt, she decided not to put respect ANYMORE to her useless bruder.

Useless as in many term. like seriously, he rather kill his own sister to back up his girl .yeah the hell with that . i just dont care. 

you're not worthy anyway. 

in time im needing your guys' help, you weren't around. so why should i have a reason not to disrespect you ? blood relates us , but loyalty is what make us family..

and the day that her brother willing to kill her , that is the very day that Mia's heart has turned very fuckin cold towards him and Lana ofcourse. 

being friends with her, sure still can... but to be housemates ... well... i need to say no for that. 

im taking over my feeling and clearing my sense to a very natural state..whereas i have to do a tough decision on that.. leaving a friend behind. 

its not really my choice though .. but since people are stepping on my head again and again (fact : sa ne lurus bendul ) 

when they know my being and should not suppose to do that, im taking a different way then. 

biarlah... im assuming that i wasnt my fault... feel forced anyway. hahaha

so another thing is that .. im willing to take an occupation that gonna make me totally remote from the city and other people. 

salary's good. 

butttttttttttttttttttt ... my mommy didnt give me the blessing i need. gahhh ... that is the time that i only wished that i was an orphan .

hurm ...so its alrite. 

mum bought an apartment in the city and started moving stuff in there.. she asked me to stay at that house... but the distance to my current workplace is quite far. so i m thinking to come over during the weekend only...least im coming home, aite? 

and another thing is. 

i moved to another workplace too ...going here and there... quite fun ..but really.. duit pun terbanggg,.... exhausted to the max.. and all .

urmmm....but im happy with my new job. 

but i need to sit in front of two big lcd's everyday for like 8 to 10 hours and it makin my eyes really sober. 

tia pa la...cari makan kan gitu ...

bout me and jeremy .. things are great.. ^_^ 

just good. 

hehe

took new pictures and talk about stuffs... 

and it feels so good to see him .

i'll give some sneak peek next time.. 

going back to work now... so thanks for spending times reading. 

happy 13 | 12 |2012 !

ciaoz<3

HELLO DECEMBER !!!

Heypp... im still awake..

so its the first of December Two oh Twelve.. 

hohooh i am very sure that i had been owing my self lots of time to tell bout my story .

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i love to write and i love to express my feeling thru words.. 

but ever since my lappy crashed and broadband damaged.. i really dont have time to fix them though.

bayangkan sa punya kerja pagi sampai malam baru sampai rumah. hujung minggu memanG sa malaaaaassss mau keluar.. amat ...malas. kecuali, kalu sa ada duit itu masa. wuhhuuuu....

im a kaki wayang too ....despite of being a food lover.. for instance, i could have them both in a time.

i remembered my perangai buruk, membawa mcD big mac and KFC two piece chicken into the cinema hall ...wewhhh ~~ kamu dapat bayang ka macam mana orang2 sebelah sa kempunan terhidu2 tu bau sedap ?? wkwkkwk jahat kan ? ada lagi yg marah coz cannot focus on the mubiee... lulz... 

ahhaha oh wow i never thot its been already a year since my ups and downs... fuhhh should marry myself. 

ahaaa ~~ so lets talk bout my story ... recently ... im wishing my self a happy monthsary with my dear Jeremy .. 

he cannot be there for me on that very day ...becuz of work matter and distance. yes... kami berjauhann ....jauhhh gilak ...kalu urg len , bf dia di sepanggar, dia pula di penampang pun suda rasa jauh ...apakan lagi saya inihh ....

ngam2 lagi sa punya hati betul2 fragile skg..mudah betul give up sama org... urmmm ...tp we manage to handle it... he made effort to call at night during our day ...despite of the fear that bad thugs might peek around... and we talked for minutes and i could happily go to sleep..

:) happy monthsary jeremy 

struggling with life here...  kerja sama client yg amat amat bikin geli and annoying is not easy. i dont know.. maybe land surveyor dept suma la dia punya ba... rules and stuffs suma dia yg atur... our own boss nda pernah sama sekali bising pasal kerja kami which i think is already satisfying but this one old witch memang suka cari masalah cari kesalahan n etc yg negative....emang dasar unta la... hoho...

our contract has been shortened and we are going to end it up at the end of november. but me , and another two friends are called to the HQ to attend the training there... kalu lulus ituh training... .kami keraja lagii ...kalu inda...memang caucincau sudah la... 

but ...different situation is... 

i'd planned to go far far far from this sad sad sad place if i can.... sa nda bule ouh tinggal sini kekeh... sakit kepala sa teringat benda yg sakit sakit... haahhah... budu . 

everywhere has a memory , every place and every song yg selalu sa hadapi di sini ... .

and moreover.... MIA is vey much enuf with prangai c LANA.... she cannot stand to be a hypocrite no longer/....and yes she told her boyfriend about it.. 

so that is why .... sa betul2 perlu jalan. 

kalu tidak...sa stick dengan keadaan yg sussahh mau ubah kiri kanan dia.. 

f im not your mother i dont live everyday to pamper you ... i dont want to live my life with hatred towards person like you..bule ada high blood bah kalu hari2 sakit hati.

yea perhaps she could be her bruder's girl but not a huzmate ... Mia cannot stand low hygiene punya org. seriously . and susa kalu urg yg nda ble terima teguran... .kena tegur terus mau masam muka n sakit2 hati ... aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahh !

but i wont blame.. maybe itu suma bermula dari ajaran keluarga and amalan d rumah .. kan ?? and sa nda tau la...maybe sa terlampau terbiasa apa mummy sa ajar pasal hygiene matter tu la sa jahat sikit kalu bab yg ini ... maybe yes being as friends... tapi i realize i cant live with people with low tolerance and lack sense of respect., i cannot forget that stupid night. buu ~ minta maaf la... sa pun manusia juga. 

anyhow.... macam sa dapat juga la pigi jauh at last ... maybe dalam minggu depan... and imma be totally remote from people and surrounding... away from everything... and people that i know. 

sa pigi rehab lah dulu ... 

who knows i'll be able to be back as a new person like im looking forward to be... not this sad emo girl that im livin within myself since forever. hoho


sa rasa ini la pilihan n decision terbesar dalam idup sa pernah sa buat. 
kadang2 sa terfikir... i could leave just everything to live my new life... 
but selama ni budget seja yg jadi halangan... sa nda rasa takut juga mau jalan jauh... well maybe mau melawat dad sa di saaanna  .. kan ? urmm .. 

but yah...next week would be it. sa urus dulu suma utang2 sa di kekeh ne... urus suma yg patut then sa caucincau... sa patut ambik ne peluang la..once in a lifetime urang bilang kan.
i'll miss my friends families and memories... well missing those memories is part of moving on bah kan..

i know i should walk one step forward.. after all the devastation that life has given to me.
life made me lost so much to gain so few... but i will try to give a thousand reason why i still could smile over it. 

thanks for the people that have hurt me and ditch me and abandoned me and betrayed me. they were all my motivator... tapi yg sa paling appreciate sa punya kawan2 la.... terutama yg tau jalan cerita sa.... dorg walaupun ada masalah sendiri tp nda pernah nda bagi sa support to move on.. dyveline, ain,cila,esee, vievie, dieya, grace lee...nantong, bee bee, daphne, ,clizn, ayumi, eyla, pet, and others... my tommy boy friends, and guy friends.... sa sayang ne smua org ...nda sa dapat buat apa pun mau kasi tunjuk yg sa appreciate... tp if i could be happy after what they'd told me to do, then thats mean sa nda kasi sia2 tu nasihat durang.. 

haha... maybe its a little too late to realize after all ...satu tahunnn wooohhh... genap satu tahun sa sakiiiiit memanjang... kalu ini pun orang cakap sa nda bagi cukup peluang... sa pun mau kasi muntah darah dulu la...tgk tu  tukang critic dapat idup lagi ka nda kalu jadi sa.. sa jadi budu ba satuu tahunn ... hahaha... memang bduu ... budu la ...tapi sa tau sa terlampau sayang tu lah sa sanggup btahan . hekhek... *kiss myself* i'd worked way too hard for it .. kan sean ? biar org yg kita syg tu happy sma life yg dia pilih .. its his lost. not me. 

wewh...but i need to work hard on my new relationship la...eventho we've owned each other ... but still effort should be applied onto it... susa juga kalu idle2...sa jera suda. 
jera suda dgn benda yg tak kemana... sa sayang tu family but apa kan daya sa sendiri macam bayang2 seja... 

hurm ...betul oh...sa bukan bebeh , banyak kekurangan...gandut lagi ... wkwkkw...tapi sa bersyukurrr sebab masih ada yg mau hargai sa... 

hehe 

tapi sa nda mau expect apa2 la ne.. biar seja tu flow macam itu .. .ada ada...teda ,teda la... kan . 

i met somebody .. 
 and his name is deyl .
i named him like that. 
he really is an amazing friend. ada dreadlock and yea a good person. he always being supportive to me and jeremy.. i feel glad.. 
i just glad ..meeting new people that actually cares and really being my motivator.. 

there's never a right time to say goodbye

thank you all , k ?

wow.. mcam farewell pula ne...hehe sa pigi rehab seja ba... 
duii ini pun mau bagitau ka..aiya kalu ada c chabey sini...sa salamm oh sama dia sebab mau thank you sama ni budak pasal dia suka sindir2 sa ba dulu ..pastu mau show off show off... besa la kalu budak kan ...hot stuff lagi.... kalu dia nda buat gitu kan...nda kali sa ada hati batu macam skg... kodou bilang kalu dusun . 
sa kasi halal seja pa dia suda buat. pa lagi yg kazen sa punya gulpren ...sa kasi halal seja hypocritism dia., 
n suma la haters sa... sudah la tu yg dulu2.... kamu telan la tu org...sa nda mau high blood oh gara2 sakit hati seja.. lol.. 

ah sudah la...penat sa mau jaga hati org ba.. hati sa ni hancur mancur suda.. betul . fuhh ...square room yg sa idam2 mau tingal lama2 pun terus sa teda mood bah.

kerja lagi ka...pusing2 bah tu gaji ...teda pun dapat save bagi sama mummy sa... hoho ...sa mau try nasib la d tpt lain... wish me luck ^^

tapi im sure... one day my rezeki will come.. i just need to have faith in God and myself.. and effort... bukan mau minta la..tp if me and jeremy werent meant  to be together pun sa rasa sa bule idup suda..sebab ini bukan pertama kali .. ngee palis2... 


hahha wewhhhhh so much to talk about ohh ... yg penting sa nda dapat suda blogging la ... tu jak ... n fbing and all ....gonna be freakin busy with life then .. 

so , have a blessed December 2012 everyone... 

hugs and kisses from me

SHONEYCA <3

Betrayer.

And i thought having a housemate was a good idea. But its farking not. Haha. What a joke. True friend wont talk behind your back issit?? But i feel stabbed again and again...the fact that i kept my mouth shut is becuz i'm the kind of person that is hard to get mad or pissed off but when i did, i can hardly stop. See? I dont make things complicated here, once you had betrayed me, and i found out, you're an end.

 Phuocccyew~

 Lemme give a scenario here... Mia and Lana were staying together. They were friends , and also a good one. Lana has been calling Mia as her sister ever since they known each other. Furthermore, Lana is a girlfriend to Mia's elder brother. And so , as soon as they finish their study, Mia went off an area of the city and stayed there alone, working. After raya , Lana contacted Mia to ask if she could live with her. With a big heart Mia asked her to come over and move in. Month passed, they live together in one empty house. And once the landlord asked them to move out, they moved. Lana came from her hometown with no saving at all.

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Mia has been responsible for all the expenses of both of them without any complaining despite that she has her own problem. Two months. And ever since they stayed in one small square room , they get used to sleep next to each other. No mattress just comforter. Indeed life is hard for both of them. Lana has encountered problem at her working place and quit eventually. Mia , in the other hand , recommended her to work at her workplace. She was accepted. And they were happily work together, going home together , eat together and etc. Mia trusted Lana so much when Lana started to show her dark side. Lana has been giving a utter disrespect to Mia despite of the fact that they live together. She has been so irresponsible. Eat . . Then the dishes she left there till maggots come. Sleep . . She used to watch movie or listening to music till fall asleep. The thing is, she uses the loudspeakers. Ironing cloth, she uses Mia's comforter blanket as a base and burnt it .

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She didn't even say sorry to Mia. And doing the laundry, she can't even do a simple thing right. All of these are bothering Mia a lot and so much. Becuz Mia thot that Lana is big enuf to think and shouldn't act like baby instead. She keep it silent. And try to accept Lana's flaws. And then , there's one time , Lana's boyfriend which is also Mia's brother, came over. They were arguing so much and suddenly that fucker asked Mia to get out of the room. He and Lana were making out in term of getting over with their argument. Mia feels so fucking upset that she called her boyfriend, Josh , and once she heard his voice, she burst into tears. Mia has been putting respect on Lana for all these while and she kept stepping on her head. The room that they rented was actually given it's own rules. One of the rule is ' NO OUTSIDER ALLOWED '.


Mia still remembered when Lana went for her convocation at kl, she didn't even mess up with the room. She didn't even bring Josh to come and sleep over when she could actually do that. But Lana is being so stupid that she made out with her boyfriend in that very room. Mia felt disgusted. And she felt hardly to sleep on that comforter ever since. But still, she kept her mouth shut. . Days passed. Then one day the landlord of the room called both of them. They were scolded for being late on paying the rent. And since salary is yet to banked in, they both tried to ask help from family member. Mia is scolded by her own mum instead of getting helped. Her dad didn't even have a single penny just yet at that time.


 Her brother argued with her. And eventually she told Josh and he helped her. She ask help from her sister, Jude and she helped her. On the other hand , Lana didn't even managed to get any help from anybody. Again, Mia did it all. But Mia never blame on Lana. Then one day, Mia cried . She was so upset with her family members. And she shared her problem with Lana. After hearing her problem, Lana made a confession. All these while, it turns out that Mia's own mum has been contacting Lana. And she judges Mia as she actually told it to Lana.

Mia was shocked . She never thot that her own mother would trust other people than trusting her own daughter. That is the point that she felt so fucking betrayed. By the people around her. She don't know her family anymore. And she doesn't like Lana anymore. She wants to leave and go far far away from the people she known. Lana doesn't know about this. But Mia is determined to leave her soon. So that's the scenario. I only could say that i'm so disappointed with my own family and the person that i thot were my friend. I just gonna leave these people. Moreover, whats d point for being so dumb and just let the world step on you? I hate betrayal.


Seriously i do. I'll leave soon. Just wait and see.

life. The New Leaf

Colorful life, isn't it..?? True... Becuz we never knew what might happen to us in the future.


 Meet jeremy, he's my friend before, a good one. And i never expect things like this would happen.. Three times of trying, the fourth time he managed to have me as his girlfriend. 22th october,. He kneeled down and proposes to me in front of the public ... Weewwh ... I was in cloud nine, a dream that is too good to be true. my heart tells me , do give it a shot tis time. And so...i took the propose. Next day i met his parents and had a great dinner and talk together. The family are so warm and cheerful. Especially his mum. Lots of advices were given. And somehow i feel secured... I love what i feel. I feel being wanted . I feel that i could happily tell the world about who am i to someone. It was my dream anyway. Im tired of becoming a shadow .. And feel tired of getting a simplest thing in the hardest way,....

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 Jeremy and me. This is a beautiful feeling. He grabs me and kissed my forehead as he tells me, 'you dont have to be afraid of letting go anymore' i smiled and i know he meant it. So i decide.... I have to let go. Ajin, our stories and our fate. Puzzle left undone. I loved him before, more than i loved myself. But he never sees it in me. But i dont and wont blame him for choosing a better girl out there. Furthermore, i cannot hate him. :) which is good for me. I'll try to live as happy as i can with my new story.

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 Quite sad becuz soon after meeting his family, jeremy and them went back to hometown which is far from me and the fact that he works in non-line coverage areas, is really tempting. But i know i can cope. Sa biasa suda juga. And i know i dont have to be worry. :) i pray that everything is gonna be fine , my story,ajin's story, i know he is happy without me.. :) i'll get better in time , Amen.


 My story. Finance problem is all it... I wish i could get out from this problem. Suffocated much. life at work somehow is really tiring.but i am grateful as it teaches me how hard its like to earn a single penny out of your sweat like seriously. I know now. Thank you Lord for teaching me. Family. This word is now a stranger for me, i felt like i am not exist. In family, suppose that we are standing firm with each other. But seems like things turn the other way around. I dont know why shud i get to live life like tnis . I knoww i shudnt blame them. I will improve myself and pay my debts to them.thanks family, i feel that im not exist among you guys. Huuu...all i know now is that i cannot predict future.

Despite of my hatred towards guy, jeremy gave me a reason not to. --.relieved now. I wont take this chance for granted. ..IMMA LOVE MY LIFE HEARTFULLY! ciaozzz

jumaat yg blank

Apa yang jadi tadi ? Saya hampir kena langgar kereta .. Jalan terus tanpa ada fikir apa apa. Kenapa saya hari ni . . . Suda hampir 5 hari sa sendiri , dieya pg kehel ikut konvo.

 Kenapa sy x pg? Ada banyak reason. . , 1st. . .masalah kewangan, mum pun x dapat afford untuk konvo sbb dia banyak hal perlu diurus. 2nd kalu me n bon pun dua2 ikut konvo...means the expenses gonna be doubled too.. Kn? 3rd... Ajin pernah cakap yg dia akan ksi teman sya pi konvo.,.but now??? He's somewhere out there with other people. Semua ni kalau sy terlalu fikir, sy sendiri sakit. I know no one can help me to cure this pain. Cuma sy yg boleh pilih jalan yg sy mau. Either to keep falling down..or to look up and move forward, sy pilih moving on. Tapi sejujur nya... The past kept haunting me. My soul ..it is torned and in vain. Empty and lost. Sa pernah rasa yg sa ni cuma badan yg bergerak..p kerja... Makan ,,tidur, thats it.

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Future planning? The path is not as easy as i think. Even tho karim and geng karuks sa sentiasa kasi hibur hati sa, sometimes, at many time..,sa jealous tgk sis dieya btexting dgn bf, bkoling.,, huhu... My hp slalu guna untuk download lagu,internet...n this..blogging. Hbis kredit pun gara2 ini ja. -.. Memang la xda bf pun boleh steady... Tapi keadaan sy lain. Sy selalu bertanya sama diri sendiri. KENAPA SAYA!? Hmm... Puzzle undone.

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Tu ja yg sy boleh cakap. Sy cuma terkilan la orang mudah lupa diri .. Bila dia ada segalanya... Tapi sy pula yg kena cakap lupa diri, i was like, really?. You're dead wrong .. Sy slalu doa yg hati sa ne kena bagi ketenangan yg paling tenang la supaya bila sa mati kah , dia suda kawin ka, dia jalan depan mata sa dgn bini dia ka, sy x akan berdendam.,juga x akan sakit. Malah hari2 sa doa untuk dia... Thats all . Sy berazam mau improve diri, at least ini lah reward sa untuk diri sa.,, suda mau hampir satu tahun ini sa menangis untuk somebody yg tidak sedar dgn pbuatan dia. Jujur sa cakap. Sa mmg sayang dia.

                                                                             

                                                                                   him

 Sy tidak mau jadi beban dia . Banyak lagi perempuan yg mengharap untuk berada di sisi dia, hurmm..if ada doremon kan.. Sa minta tu dia kasi klon si rj supaya tiada hard feeling lg. Secara x langsung pa yg terjadi selama ni effect dia x pernah ilang..sakit. Tp entah kenapa sa rasa sa betul sayang dia sampai x dapat benci dia. :) Tuhan ja yg tahu.apa jalan terbaik untuk semua orang, sy just mau berserah.. Fokus dgn keja,,, n tidak menjangka apa2. By that way.. I wont hurt so much.

Ajinca

Saya mimpi pasal ajin. Nitemare. Saya bg motivate diri, i told myself that he wanted to ' find ' me in other girl becuz he cannot stand to see my face and remembered my past. Sa pernah bgtau dia, sa ada dalam keadaan dia skg, and sa terima segala pbuatan dia. Sa terima segala keburukan dia.. N dia nampak sendiri mcm mana sakit pun sa tanggung, sa tetap ada d sisi dia. Tapi penerimaan dia x sama. Sa conclude yg dia masih mencari jawapan yg dia mahu. I could see that thru him. No matter how many girls that came to him after me , he never find what he wanted for.

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If not. . . Perempuan won't come in numbers. Ajin , ko jadi diri sendiri ko hanya bila ada sa dgn ko. Segala perangai n nature ko pun ada . Tapi how sweet you became when you are with them. Ko x sedar tu kan? Sy bgtau diri sy. Sy mau terima penerimaan dia terhadap sy . Dia x dapat forgive my past. I could not say anything more. Yg sy tahu ,even mcm mana hina pun dia skg,if dia dgn sy, sy besar hati akan terima keadaan dia. Dari dia zero. Sampai dia ada semua. Sy ada dalam tu proses.


Tapi maybe becuz sy nampak zero di mata dia, dia juz nampak kelemahan and kekurangan sy. Lagi satu sa terfikir, if sa mau terima dia seadanya, ada banyak lagi pmpuan yg mau terima dia seadanya kan? They're fighting to be with him. Choices is all on him. Maybe saya la yg paling buruk di mata dia. So thats why sa mau improve diri sa,untuk sa sendiri.

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He wasnt here for me. But i am there for him . Even if sa suda improve and dia terlimpas sa 1 day, and still dia pandang sa zero, apa boleh buat la kan? I can't impress the world but to myself. Acceptance phase. Saya maafkan fact ni.dugaan ni . Yea, i dont deserve him selagi sa x improve. He always said , 'u always the shoney that i've known' . Hm. Dia x pernah terfikir kah yg dia buat tu mcm mana effect dgn sa?till today. Sa masi fikir tntang dia. . N sakit .coz sa tau sa lah manusia yg dia xmau dekat.

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Jadi, to contact him pun jadi benda yg sy have to Not do. rindu . Ko. Ajin. Anyway. Sa terima keadaan skg. I wont berebut. Just i wud look up and hear from him in the time being. Apa pun. Mulut2 yang pernah fitnah sa d telinga ajin, God bless u. Ingat ja kita smua boleh dihukum bila2. Reality skg,ajin ada d sini tapi sa x akan ganggu dia . Choices is on him. Apa pun pilihan dia. Sa terima n respect ja. Im way in love with him.


Too much till cant hate. No regret. ^_^ k bye